focus...

today i am restless... i can't sit still, i can't focus, it's bad! so i am wondering where my head is, and i can't focus on that question for very long either... let alone my homework. uh oh, still a month and a half left of the semester and my focus is at about nil. not to mention the fact that i keep losing things. like envelopes to send in information for my ira account before the 15, and temporarily, my gre scores (don't worry, after a long search this morning i found those). i need to get out more and do stuff instead of spending all my nights in a house studying, it's almost like i'm going stir crazy! and to make matters worse... for the last few weeks (before this bout of cooler weather arrived on monday) it was hot and sunny outside, and i was inside for most of that. i want to go to the beach or to huntington gardens or the aquarium, let me go back to disneyland, palm springs! i don't care, as long as it's a change of scenery and i don't have to do it all by myself! oh, and while we're at it, i should clean my room and get organized... try to be more productive, that is if i can focus for long enough.
the other day i was discussing with a friend what kind of animal i would be if i was an animal... we decided it was probably either a raccoon or a squirrel (i like to hoard things- save them for someday when i might need them and i have tons of energy). he suggested a crow because they like shiny things, but i managed to convince him that aside from that i was certainly not at all crow like... i'd ask for opinions at this point, but no one has commented on my blog for months... my sorry excuse for an audience at this point has dwindled even further, which is ok i guess...
see, no focus!
passover is almost here. i have mixed feelings about that one... passover means family and spring and all sorts of other positive connotations, but it also means that the semester is almost over (which is plenty of stress in itself) and it means a week of matza... hmmmm.
also i feel like recently i've been losing touch with people, not because i don't want to talk to them, just because i'm so busy that when i have a spare moment, all i want to do is do nothing...
not focusing again! oh well, enough of this... ciao